Thursday, May 14, 2015

white privilege 101

I had a painting job in my early 20's with a small company that remodeled hotel rooms. The hotel would put us up and feed us and the company paid the travel expenses. My first job was in Boston, which lasted a couple of months. I saw the Hanson brothers from the movie "Slapshot" at a bar on St. Patricks day. No shit.

The next place I went to work was Cape Cod during the off season. If I had to describe Cape Cod during the off season using only 4 words it would be "sucks cocks in hell." It's also whiter than New England clam chowder. Hell, it is New England clam chowder and I was up to my balls in it. Or, "balls deep," as the kids say.

What's missing from this pic? Oh yeah-my balls.

The day I'm going to meet my co-workers, my boss informs me the 2 dudes I'd be working with were brothers. As we go into their hotel room, I offer my hand saying "you two must be the brothers." At the same time I see that they are also black, which my boss neglected to tell me. So yeah, I've now introduced myself with a hearty handshake to the "brothers." The only way I could have looked like a bigger asshole would have been to hold out my hand and ask for some skin along with a "what's up, blood?"

Eventually we became good friends and would laugh remembering that awkward introduction. It was also the first time I was called "nigga" on a regular basis, usually after me saying something stupid. For example: "Pass me that screwdriver, hot dog breath." Which was responded to thusly: "What'd you call me? Hot dog breath?! Goddamn, nigga-you crazier than a motherfucker!" The other thing about this is the fact that most white people are burning inside with hot coals for a black person to call them "nigga." It's the coolest term of endearment ever, and of course we have no business saying it. As a side note-the next time Obama needs Boehner to say yes to a bill, all he needs to ask at the end is "so, Boehner-are you my nigga?" He can't say no to that-no white person can! Then Boehner could quote Pulp Fiction and respond, "Shit, negro-that's all you had to say!" and a door would open up above the white house to the 5th dimension and we could all finally be as one.

Anyways, I'd become close to these guys and we'd go out drinking in Cape Cod-where everyday is a Memorial Day white sale-and get a lot of looks from people. Now, I'd dyed my hair blue while living in Nebraska in 1987, so I was used to looks. Along with ridicule and even sometimes beat up. However, this was the first time it was a race thing and there was a certain uneasiness to it below the surface.

One Sunday after we'd been shopping in a mall, the police drove up to us as we were walking in the parking lot. "You two fit the description of two males who just robbed a grocery store." They were then both put in the backseats of two separate cop cars for questioning. They didn't even look at me and when they finally did, it was to flippantly ask if I was "with them." I protested, explaining to the police that we had been shopping together, and together the entire time. I grew angry as nothing I said seemed to matter, to the point when I was told if I didn't calm down I'd be in the back of a cop car as well. They finally let us go. As we walked away I was livid, going over the details ad naseum until I was finally interrupted. "Nigga-this shit happens to us all the time." To them, it was no big deal. You know why? CUZ THIS SHIT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME. And worse. Way worse.

It was an awful realization, but one I could never have as a white person in my comfortable white world. I grew up in a white neighborhood and went to a white school. The black experience was completely off of my radar. However, ignorance via circumstance is no longer an excuse. If you are a white person, read the book "White like Me." Follow the Root and Colorlines on Facebook. And for the love of shit, stop listening to Iggy Azalea-seriously, that's a deal breaker. Also, stop accusing people of using the race card. That one is even more embarrassing than Iggy. Also, watch this:






Wednesday, February 25, 2015

the pt cruiser effect and some random crap

What's the PT Cruiser effect? Well, grab a seat for your ass meat and I'll lay it on you. The first time I glimpsed the sadness that is the PT Cruiser, she'd crept into my periphery, remaining on the fringe with the awful knowledge of someone who knows they've done something they shouldn't-like exist. My first impulse was aesthetic. It reminded me of the older, 1940's cars that I'd rarely seen in person and more likely in a ZZ Top video. "That's kinda cool," I thought with my ignorant brain. At this point the PT had come into full view, ready for her centerfold and hoping to fulfill someones sad, depleted whacking material. Its then that I realized, "oh shit-this car is totally lame." The sting of her betrayal was a knife in my balls. She knew the whole time that she was just gonna fuck me. And not in the good way. That's when I concluded that I'd been the victim of the PT Cruiser effect.

The Reverend Jim Jones of the PT Cruiser effect.

Now, I'd sooner have my balls set on fire and stomped out by a Clydesdale than be seen behind the wheel of a PT Cruiser, but fate would have it another way. My dear, sweet mother whom I adore, was manipulated by the conniving, self-aware whore that is the PT Cruiser and was unable to awake from her (probably)smelly spell. She too was a victim of the PT Cruiser effect, but unfortunately only the rapture could bring her out of her slumber.

I went home to visit my mother for Christmas, as a good son does. "You can borrow my new car while you're home," she exclaimed, tossing the keys towards me in slow motion. I smiled as I held my hands to catch the keys-still in slow motion-as she burst out in tears of joy, "It's a PT Cruiser!" I swallowed hard, forcing the vomit back down my throat as my smile turned into a twisted grimace. "By the sweat of Satan's balls, I cast thee out, demon!"

The only good PT is a dead PT.

So, I totally didn't say that. After all, this woman pushed a heathen from her vagina into an unsuspecting world and I must respect our little pact. Instead, I had to drive a PT Cruiser around town like a total asshole. Get this-I drove to my friends work and asked if I could see her and waited in the lobby. All of the dignity was drained from my balls as I heard someone say, "Hey Anna, your friend is here to see you-it's some guy in a PT Cruiser." Yep-that happened.

Dude! You know how much action this back seat has seen? None.

Now, the PT Cruiser effect can come in different forms, from distressed logo's on t shirts to effects laden movies with Tom Cruise, which is the dreaded PT Tom Cruiser effect. Really, it's anytime you second guess yourself in your choices. However, someday we'll all be dead and burning in eternal hellfire, gnashing our teeth behind the wheel of a PT Cruiser so fuck it.

"Yes they deserved to die and I hope they burn in hell!!"


As far as some random crap, let's see.....oh-if you're a girl and you're sweaty you should say "my tit's are sweating balls."

Also, change the lyrics to the Michael Jackson song to "I'm trying to shave my balls in the mirror."

And one more time, "balls."

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

viewing under the influence: a series*

I'm not one for drinking alone-however, if you've got The Bandit or Philo Bedoe around, you're never alone. So yes, you should drink tons of beer while watching movies and feel nothing but elation. For instance, this one time I was having a beer on the couch and glanced up at the TV to see that a movie was playing-it's really that simple!

Myself, I tend to stick with 70's cinema because suspension of belief is usually required and the soundtracks are amazing. Why the 70's, you ask?

1. Burt Reynolds is probably in it.

2. A bar fight is totally gonna break out.

3. An animal will be fed beers.

4. Awkward racial slurs. Even ones that weren't as obvious, like referring to Asians as "Oriental".

5. Muscle cars that will make your mangina soaking wet.

6. Classic swearing, ie. "Balls!"

7. Drinking and driving? Oh, shit yeah!

8. The now defunct Palomino Club.

9. Another bar fight.

You're in luck, as I've been considerate enough to watch a shit-ton of these movie while drinking beer like I just found out that I've lost my parents in a horrible car crash. I'm also including a beer rating which will help gauge how many beers you'll need to watch the movie. The idea isn't how many you'll need for the movie to be awesome, it's how many beers you'll drink BECAUSE the movie is so awesome. Our series begins with.......



Hooper



Lets begin by knocking it out of the park. This is pretty much the pinnacle of drinking and viewing. You get Burt Reynolds, a bar fight, a horse that chugs coors, drinking and driving, the usage of "balls" as an exclamation, a sweet theme song about the life of a hollywood stuntman, and a fucking rocket car. Yes-a fucking rocket car

Highlights include a pre-Dukes of Hazard Roscoe P. Coltrane as Hooper's pill providing side kick, a pre-what the fuck happened to your face Jan Michael Vincent as the up and coming "kid" stuntman, a pea-smuggling Sally Field(if that's what you're into-no judgements), a doctor smoking in a hospital, and most importantly, a fucking rocket car.

The Palimino club? Yep-with a bar fight in the beer garden involving a young(but still quite ugly)Terry Bradshaw. Oh shit-is that Robert fucking Klein?! That motherfucker's in it too?! Yes, that motherfucker is in it too, playing a smarmy director who rocks a sweet snowmobile onesie on set. Mad with power, he pushes Hooper and the kid into more dangerous and deadly stunts, all in the  name of his "art." Of course Hooper has the last laugh, handing Klein's dick to him on a plastic picnic plate right after breaking the forth wall with his classic, mustachioed smirk. Of course.

Beer rating: all of them. It's just that good. Yes, you will mos def drink all of your beers.


"Who's got two thumbs, a Hooper tattoo, and love's the movie "Hooper"?
Maybe this guy. I can't see if he has thumbs.


* Yes, I admit this is some lazy-ass horseshit but I can't blow your tits off every time. Also, you should watch "Every Which Way But Loose" as a homework assignment and drink a good sixer or two. We'll talk about that soon.


Wednesday, January 7, 2015

"the laddie reckons himself a poet"

I'm attempting this post thru a foggy haze of NyQuil and the common cold, my head a congested slurpy machine. It's 6 days into the new year and I've been pinned to the couch like a dead butterfly for most of them, the ridiculous irony being that my good friend was here for 3 of them to visit and showed up with the same affliction. I have no idea what's behind that serendipity doo dah, but I was happy to have someone else in the trenches of the 'nam, turning my living room into a triage infirmary. We also both shared the heavy crack pipe that is "Sons of Anarchy," along with some cult classics from the 80's such as:


...and some random documentaries such as:


...both of which I highly recommend. 

Fret not, dear reader, as the drama and triumph that was the Burt Reynolds Auction will soon be detailed on this horseshit blog but for now let's talk about "The Process." There is an innumerable amount of failure when its comes to risk, especially in creative endeavors. Also, attempting art when you're shit-housed. So with that in mind I'm going to share with you one such attempt. Quick back story-a dear friend of mine passed on into the ether last year who truly was the most realest motherfucker of all real motherfuckers, fucking up my head and heart in ways I hadn't imagined. Well played, dickhead universe. Well played indeed. I wrote this "poem" one night in an alcohol fueled nebula which culminated in a supernova of bad spelling and grammar. I was drunk and angry, howling at the moon for my ethereal loss. It comes across as the frantic rantings of an insane person but there's also some beauty-it's some raw shit, motherfucker. Enjoy and remember-keep failing. It's the only way we get any better. And fuck F. Scott Fitzgerald in his dead-ass butt. I may be misquoting him, but we all have a second act. Plus I just wanted to say "dead-ass butt."

I want you to asked the dj to play I was made for loving you by kiss and welt have a couples only slow skate in my heart and we'll hug and laugh and fart and shit and piss all over because we're horribly flawed individuals living in an insane world that wants us to fail and will take pics of it and instagram and hashtag our failures and maybe make is celebrities for a day and turn us into royalty only for us to fall and be celebrated again as failures and mske everyone feel better because they never took s chance and settled for a slow and inebevitable tug job into ncomplacency. Then tell me not to pull the trigger even though in my head it's a sleeping bag under the stars with a sandwich made by my mom so I can taste the love. Man I wanna pull the trigger.pull open my skull Nd dump whiskey all over it and it'll short circuit and I'll be the old guy who drank too much and died instead of the old guy who die